Monday, June 6, 2011
Magnificent Monday-Go With The Flow
Already today I have been presented with challenges! I am supposed to be in family court this morning in San Bernardino, Ca (I live in Las Vegas) to decide custody of my four children. Since my family is in California and tomorrow is my mothers birthday, we had planned to make a weekend out of it spending it with the family.
My children and I woke up at 3:00am in order to get dressed, load the car and be on the road by 4:00am. The drive only takes me three hours so I would have been there in plenty of time for my 8:30am court appearance. I made sure I had all of our favorite music together and everything seemed to be going smoothly. My children, looking forward to seeing their grandparents and celebrating their granny's birthday, had packed their stuff days ago and lined the hallway leading to the front door with their bags. I filled up the gas tank last night so all we had to do was load the car, get in and leave.
We loaded the car, got in...um, where are the keys? My daughter, who checks the mail and is usually really good about returning the keys to me looked at me with that deer in the headlights look. I asked again...KM, what did you do with the keys after you checked the mail last night. Now, I am notorious for losing my keys so I have developed the practice of leaving them in the car so that I don' lose them. But this time there were no keys to be found and she apparently could not recall what she did with them after checking the mail. 3 1/2 hours later, still no keys.
I could feel the anger welling up as I thought about the fate of the custody of my children and not being able be in court on time or at all. I began to imagine all the things the judge would say when the calendar was read and no one answered when my name was called. ALL kinds of made up visions were running through my head! I mean, I had it all played out in my mind as to what would happen in court today and I was getting angrier by the minute. Just as I was about to start yelling at my daughter for losing the keys I heard the voice; the Spirit saying don't resist what is; GO WITH THE FLOW and don't fight against it.
Now I'm a very spiritual person and normally I would have recognized and welcomed the presence of the Divine at work here but not today! I needed to get to court and I needed to leave NOW! I didn't want to hear anything about going with any damn flow! All I wanted to do was leave!!
As I huffed around the house frantically searching for the Houdini keys I kept hearing it. GO WITH THE FLOW; DON'T RESIST WHAT IS! By now I have reached a point where I know that when your plan is not going according to plan that there is a BIGGER plan at work. So I found a quiet place and sat myself down. I closed my eyes...took a few deep cleansing breaths... and mentally said: OK God, what are you trying to tell me?!
That's when the calm came and I realized that there was in fact a bigger plan at work here. So I let my kids off the hook and told them to go back to bed. We would find the keys when we found them.
I called my attorney's office and sent him an email informing him of the situation. What else can I do I asked myself. Answer: nothing! Its not in your hands!!
So I sat back and decided to trust in the fundamental goodness of the Divine. I have no idea what is going to happen in court this morning;whether my ex will be awarded full custody of our four children as he has asked for or if what I have asked for;joint custody with him having visitation as he pleases will be awarded. But I do know this: That all things truly do work together for our good! We have no idea how all the seemingly unrelated events of our lives have worked together to produce THIS moment!
I have detached myself from the outcome of this "dilemma" and am trusting that whatever happens is part of the plan for our lives and that everyone involved will see good come of this. I have decided to GO WITH THE FLOW of life knowing that the Divine is in the flow right along with this problem and that at the end of the day, all will continue to be well with me as this Divine plan unfolds and I get another opportunity to see the magnificence of the Divine at work.
So, when you are faced with challenges, and you will be, and things don't seem to be going the way that you have planned, don't resist what is. Know that there is a bigger plan at work in your life; something more grand than you could ever imagine! Trust that there is only good planned for your life and that everything will always work out! GO WITH THE FLOW!!
Now if I could only find my keys!